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LOST TIME (REPRISE) (09/05/2021) back A life spent wasting time Chasing meaningless things to numb myself And I wonder what's still mine If I can make sense of what's within me I've learned to fear sleeping For each day is a waste, I've lost so much already I wish I could tell everyone, Whether they want to listen or not. Don't play with the storm inside me, Don't waste your time like I wasted mine Looking for safety in the line of fire There's no grave deep enough To hide child-sized bones Don't touch me, don't chase me anymore, Are these memories mine or yours? Seems it's the only thing on my mind these days, All that I wish I could take back from you, And all the years I spent crying and waiting, Waiting for someone to tell me it was a joke I don't want to lament you anymore. I'm in shock that these memories are mine to keep. Don't take it personally, take it on the chin Take it in good spirits, oh, how I've learned to fear, There's too much to be afraid of Oh, and how I've learned to hate And I hate how I've wasted my time But I've learned to control myself The future is not what it used to be You weren't worth grieving after all It had taken me so long to learn I was human And now I don't know what to do Oh, how I wish, sometimes, That I could hurt you But I have no purpose waiting around here There's nothing left now. I can't tell my left from my right I don't know who I'm talking to If my feelings are natural or mangled by insanity It's easy to weave narratives of destiny After losing my youth to delusion Protection in the face of torture I would have chosen to never stop drowning If it meant time would stop passing Don't follow me, don't haunt me, Sometimes I wish I could tell you All the things on my mind these days, All that I wish that I could take back, And all the years I spent fighting and begging Begging for hope to feel real I don't want to lament you anymore. I don't want to waste time anymore. "But I have all the time in the world", I heard someone say that once I was burned by scalding hot adrenaline It's hard to comprehend life without so much activity Let me not make the same mistake, if I am still young, I yearned for danger to remind me I was alive Let me rest before the next storm, I'll learn to appreciate the serenity I don't want to waste time anymore. I forgot that I was young... I forgot that I was young...  |
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